Tuesday, September 11, 2012

flare

With autoimmune arthritis (I specify that because osteoarthritis is completely different) symptoms can come and go.  When symptoms are at the worst they are said to be flaring.  It's not something we have really ever experienced until this weekend.

Emily had been off steroids a little over two weeks when we started to notice her rash come back and stay.  It has already been around (I say it is mocking me), but this time it was different because it was more prominent and itchy.

At her last infusion I noticed her lab numbers were not looking good; d-dimer and fertin where on the rise and hemoglobin was taking a dip, all classic symptoms.  So I called the Rheumatologist and asked if the rash and these labs meant that MAS was back.  MAS is macrophage activation syndrome (I wrote about it here) and it is scary because there is a 20% mortality rate associated with it if not treated.  About ten years ago MAS didn’t even have a name; it was a fever that killed because there was no treatment so it’s not something we like.

Sure enough we get a call back, it was MAS.  Hello steroids, it hasn’t been long enough.  We started her again on 2mls per day, not too bad, but enough to invite ‘roid rage back and increase her energy.  It wasn’t enough though, four days later the rash was worse and she was crying it was so itchy…ugh.  So we were told to raise the steroids to 3mls twice a day.  Not that bad, not the 10mls we were on, but it feels like we took one step forward (ending steroids) and two back (6mls a day was months ago).

It seems to be working.  Emily is her old self; she had not been acting right at all this past weekend so I knew something was up. 

Flares are common with this nasty disease and they can happen anytime.  The one thing I find assuring is that for the most part the worst part of the disease is the onset.  So hopefully Emily will never be that sick again.

Thursday, September 6, 2012

First day of school! First day of School! First day of school!

Emily’s first day of school was this week and boy was it rough, on me.  I did not like how it felt to realize she will be depending on others to learn and grow now as well and from me and my husband.  I’m not a big fan of outside influences in the world we live in today.
Aside from how I felt, Emily really seemed to enjoy it.  She even had her teacher reading from Taking Arthritis to School.  We know because we had to interrupt the reading to pick her up for her infusion. 
First day of kindergarten + Actemera infusion = bed time at 5:30 p.m.
I’m still trying to decide if I was more upset about my sweet girl growing up and moving on or because there are so many germs and ways to get hurt at school.  What if someone comes to school with the Chicken Pox or Strep Throat or a cold?  Too many worries.
Her teacher was very nice though and after we discussed our concerns with her suggested we write a note home to all the parents telling them about Emily’s suppressed immune system. We did.  How much of an impact it had we may never know although if Emily does not come down with any viruses this year we will credit the letter with success and try again next year for sure.
Emily does enjoy school, but we can tell it is hard on her.  She comes home exhausted, usually immediately falls asleep and then doesn’t want to go back.  Since she’s been sick she doesn’t like doing things that require a lot of work so school and swimming lessons are on the top of her list right now. We’ve taken it upon ourselves as her parents to push her to work though; it’s part of learning to live with this nasty disease.  Even though she wakes up stiff and in pain she’s got to move past it to live so we are trying to teach her how to cope (warm baths and extra early bed times) and how to suck it up (sometimes life just hurts). 
It’s a learning experience for me.  I hate negative people and believe anything is possible, but trying to instill this belief into a five year old is not very easy, especially when she learned earlier this year that there are things you just can’t do when your body attacks itself, at least you can’t do them until the medicine kicks in.
Our new rule for this school year is every time Emily says “I can’t.” she has to stop and say “I can” five times. We’ll teach her she can even if she doesn’t want us to.
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Here’s to the rest of the school year being good and Emily getting strong enough to take on first grade.